Storytelling

I want to tell my story

All my stories

Perform them, paint them, write them down before I forget

They're begging me to come out, nagging me

Throughout sleepless nights

I want to tell all my stories but they should be flawless

They should solve all my problems

and problems of people like me

They should heal all my traumas

and traumas of people like me

They should provide me with a sense of purpose

help me actualise myself

give me financial independence

I want to tell my stories

But I fear I don't have what it takes

I fear if I try

It'll be a waste of time

It'll be waste of me

I won't be able to help anyone

change the world for the better

save myself

I'll make it worse, much worse

Be publicly shamed and ridiculed

And far worse, I will be pitied

It happened before

That was the first thing that happened

I still want to tell my story

But I should not allow myself

I would not

If I can help it

Feels safe, to remain unseen

Please let me be unheard

Unborn to my unhappy family

Undone by my loveless mother

Unknown

Untold

But I want to tell my story.